PTSD relapse
PTSD relapse
Its been over 1.5 years since I left and 2 years since he raped me (among other things) and I could see a light at the end of the tunnel until yesterday.
My potential presence at a large party where I know he'll be at gave me an intense panic attack. The fear, the dread and the nerves all came back. I should be thankful for it because its a reminder that it wasn't all in my head, that the reactions and fear were real.
But its affecting me deeply. I hate myself for not being strong, for still being single, for him waltzing through life partying and conning more and more and more women (and men).
I know karma is supposed to take care of him, but does that really happen? I feel such shame in not being over this and want him to suffer like me.
panic attack
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His entire world is fake and
i know but
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thanks Goldie
also ...
So familar
same N
Layers..,
Self admiration..,
hi, realized,
spinning
Feeling shame...