2 days NC...just got first hoover

Wow can't believe it. I really deep down didn't think I would ever hear from him again. I never felt so thrown away ever. I've been crying. all day and posting on here. I was warned this may happen and I honestly didn't believe it. I'm kind of freaking out right now. I'm not responding and staying strong. My logical brain is starting to finally get it. I feel like he's just screwing with me.